lets

i have always liked the idea that you complete something.
one round.
so that it connects.
and i have always love the idea that i get to choose my death.

it's rather tragic to just die randomly,
spontaneously.
unwillingly.

i like how my tombstone would read,
11.03.83 - 10.03.10
looks cool.

life has been a fun ride,
wild but fun.
regardless of what may come,
and happen.
i think everything else is rather cliche,
and predictable.

rarely anything excites me now.
or even interest me.
i think i am more excited to see what's after life is like...

somedays i think perhaps i have this illness,
deadly, (literally)
that's why everything else is not meant to be.

so let's pretend, i only have 2 more months.
65 days more to be exact.

now it feels, there's so much to do,
so little time left. haha.

if i live thru this time line, then let's play again,
the next year,
and if i don't... you are not invited to my funeral.

life is about timeline, movements.
so you feel that you have achieved something in life.

third day of the new year so far...

several things has kicked off the beginning of the new year.

on the first day itself i was awoken by a knock.
sis said mom was very ill.
and i needed to go get a doctor back.
and well most of the doctors in this area, they don't do house call.
tried calling few doctor friends and thank god Paul answered it.
wasn't a big major emergency after all.
especially since mom mustered enough energy to scold me...

then that evening,
i saw a dream car.
it's all miko's fault.
and now i want it badly.

while today, i suddenly felt emo.
so blue so gloomy.
i wonder why is the human mind so odd.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

it's coming to the end of 2009.
and it's been a wild fun crazy happening ride.

regardless of what it might have been,
i guess i am happy i survived this journey.

hopefully 2010 will be way more fun, less stress.
less work... but more money. hahaha.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

KL e kaerimasu!!!

finally i am back and done with ipoh!
YAYS!
two more days and i am done with the shoot!
double YAYS!!!

i almost forgotten what home sweet home meant...
how comfortable being in my own room is like...
regardless the mess.
my own privacy. yes to random masturbation!

finally my own... BED!!!

it's good to be home!
;)

MERRY CHRISTMAS & HAPPY HOLIDAYS!!!



p/s THANKS ben ben. i really really love the pressie. and bleks i couldn't wait to open it ma~~~ heh. HUGS!