second day of the year, but it seems so dark and empty.

i woke up at 5.
wanting to cry.
i heard from somewhere (men's health) it's healthy to actually cry.
but i forgotten how this works.

i don't have tears to drop.
i don't know why.

even at my aunt's wake i couldn't shred a single tear.
all i felt was sadness.
memories of my grandma and the shop lot in malacca,
was all i could think of.

i don't know what i am to do.

i don't want this path anymore.
god oh lord please send someone to guide me.
let him shine some light to walk me out this dark cave.

it feels so cold.
i feel so heartless.

like an empty shell
just waiting for days to pass me by.

out with 2008, in with 2009

this past few days i have been happy.

maybe because i have no expectation,
on anything.

and that makes life easier.

so there's no need for any silly 2009 resolution.

just a simple thought which is to live life to the fullest,
happily ride along with the crisis.

so 2008 came by with a blink of an eye.
am sure 2009 would just pass us by.
even if it doesn't as long as there's love,
anything can happen.
anything can be conquered.

meet many many wonderful people,
gotten to know some people way way better.
*some you wish you didn't know too well*

promised not to travel much. and i didn't.
*although next year i want to go melbourne and japan, revenge.*

completed a new movie and a series.
*hope there's more to come next year*

went for a short trip with someone i care a lot. a lot.
*i want MORE haha*

ride an ostrich.
*wanna ride the bola next year, Sphereing*

was amazed with the freeze movement
*and it died off as fast as it suddenly became HOTS*

am actually wondering what i want to do in life.
*all these sure sounds a little like a resolution... =.=*

in a way life is about waiting for death.
you plus one to your age,
and minus one for your life span.
*yes i had to end it in a very emo way*

CHEERS TO A FANTABULOUS 2009~!!!
MAY IT ROCK AND SHAKE THE WORLD.

and hopefully all the bad guys will just die off. CHEERS to that. oh and WORLD PEACE!

... fashion is going to be in a deep odd shape next year. yawns.

sunday is gay

*this post is back dated, 20/08/08. 11.39*

o.m.g.
i was changing my tag line.
since it clearly needs an update.

and... o.m.g.

i think this is the best way to detect who is gay.

Birth Dates
Monday's Child is fair of face,
Tuesday's Child is full of grace,
Wednesday's Child is full of woe,
Thursday's Child has far to go,
Friday's Child is loving and giving,
Saturday's Child works hard for a living,
But the Child that is born on the Sabbath Day,
Is witty and wise and good and gay!

like holly shit.

mmm. tho i am in the giving mood lately.
i rather be receiving. and not in that anal way. =.=#

just a kite, without a string attached.

i am looking at pictures.
of a lot of different pictures.
trying to place them,
organize them.

but,
suddenly,

none of them feels warm to me.
suddenly.

i feel like a stranger.
looking at people i know.

some smiling, some laughing.
some posing. others just stoning.

some days, i don't know why i am here.
born into this world.

placed in this country.
doing what i am doing now.

today, this very moment is one of them.
i feel, so ever lonely and lost.

someone said,
he is like a string without a kite.
but i think i am a kite,
without a string.
floating in the air, with no guidances.