kick ass

woahs. been a long exhausting week.
and somehow i never knew i had such energy in me.
it's been a while since i acted.
i don't consider the horrible experience in "impian" as acting.
more like being a puppet that got screwed up.
so goodbye boys, goal & gincu, pisau cukur was it... lols.

anyways, decided to take on a role for 8tv's new series.
already left in-charged of the styling.
then i was also offered the Production Designer's role.
WOOTS.

and i sure kick someone's ass flat with my work. HAHA.
even if i used ikea furniture. i kick her ass flat.
KAKAKAKAKAKAKAKAKA!!!
why because the previous Art Director wannabe has no colour sense.
^.^

from turning a run down apartment.
with a superb tight budget.
so tight my shopping last week was ultra super SPLURGE.
that's how shitty the budget is.
but yet i kicked ass!

from an messy-empty run down flat,



it was digusting!
and to learn that a girl is still living there then.
she doesn't clean it at all!!!
so before we started, we hired cleaners.
no way am i cleaning any toilet bowls. ^.^
or even mop the floor.



of cuz i wasn't doing all the paint work alone,
the in-house crew help painting the main colours.
and the interns help me paint the details.
many thanks to abang jamal, james, omar, liyana, dian.

i just love the wall effect i thought of. GENIUS!
*coughs and i stole coughs coughs but improvised Jen's artwork for the mural*



now a mmm... a pretty chill out crib.
i guess for a six day job, we transformed this place really superb already~la.



me a 26 year old playing a 16 year old student... -.-#



somedays, it's tiring.
exhausting. and perhaps endless criticizing.
but in the end, you are smitten,
when you know that,
you have at least entertained a handful of people.
^.^

and then i am so proud of myself.
because at least then,
i feel like i did something really good.
and i have something to leave behind after i "kaput".
LOLS.

and then i feel like i need a self reward and i will go out shop like a mad little kid who has been chained to a evil evil room for the longest time, hence when i see a shop with super nice things, i feel like a boy who sees a hot super sexy chick. i have that urge to BUY everything and splurge like a mad mad mad dog.

so... catch blogger boy this coming end may on 8tv. ^.^

six packs

mmm.
is it worth it?
going thru all those torture in the gym.
just to get a six pack.
and then you have to maintain it.
just so you look good...
>.<

and the moment you stop working out.
for lets say a week... then it turns to be two weeks.
next you know it, a month...
and PROOFFFFS... your six pack is GONE!!!

and you have to start ALL over again.
eat eat eat eat eat.
gym gym gym gym eat.
JUST SO YOU LOOK GOOD!
to impress, to seduce a potential husband... -.-
gosh. shallow. GEEEZ!

to the potential husband.
you don't have to flaunt me your abs.
your hot triceps.
or big biceps.
just show me the MONEY. ^.^
LOLS~~~

i will send you to some instant six pack comestic surgery.
way way way way faster.
and it last. long time~

missing something... something like... you.

geeez
*meet my new tag line*
GEEEZ!!!

kakakaka.
even tho this entry will/might sound a little emo.
i really am OK.

been feeling a lot better.
with the ups and downs.
i went shopping.

mmm... just this 4 days... RM6k...
i bought so much crap i can open a shop already.
my room... already packed to the ceiling...
... well lets just say i need another room.
for my clothes.

... and YET i have nothing to wear when i go out.
can you BELIEVE that???
*like Jen said, there's always a LIE in BELIEVE*

so how can i still be an emo wreck...
because i miss him.
-.-
like tak habis habis about him.
it sucks big time. but hey... i am dealing with it.
slowly.
tho every time i try.
... -.- i don't even want to think about it.
... ok fine i am worried sick that you are in BKK!!!
i know it's not my place. but i just am.

it sucks. sucks so much that, i will never be able,
... to fall in love again like this.
seeing you makes me smile.
i am content with that. just being close to you.
shrugs. i have never felt like this about a person...
in my entire life before meeting you.
and i know, that i will never be able to again.
and even tho i almost could, and that i did...
loving a bird that flies in and out of your life...
... what could you make out of that...

i want a new phone *blackberry or iphone... or both*
i want a new camera *leica or ricoh or canon or sony*
i want a new ipod
i want...
i want...
i want a live in chef to cook for me whenever i am hungry.
i NEED a super rich young cute gorgeous boyfriend! ^.^
... who loves me a lot more than i do. i am so honest.

geeez, i know the beginning and the ending doesn't make sense.
haha. my mind. my head has been a little coo coo ca choo

you are such a selfish prick!

sighs.

one minute i am chirpy.
next second... the world is like my worst enemy.

should have been a fun day.
but it turns out to be a mmm... mood less one.
things on set didn't really went as planned.
the scenes i memorized for was last minute cancelled.
and other scenes were slotted in instead,
which were long and being a dory fish i couldn't memorize them.

i think the director was moody. -.-
i turned moody... and felt stressed!
even when my new camera was delivered on set,
i wasn't even really smiling... or happy.
gggggrrrrrrrrrrr... and i was so looking forward to playing with it.
now it's just sitting at the pile of clothes.

then my sister is being all evil at home... -.-
urgggh i hate them all!!!
they are idiots to begin with,
but that doesn't mean i have to be like them.

i hate her. i wish she died. i seriously do.
my dear sister, that day will come,
when you will truly see.
and hopefully understand.
if only you see your reflection in the mirror now.
how ugly you have become...

... i never wanted this life. i really never did.
... i don't know why...
... i don't understand why...

to be all honest, when the pain happened on the chest,
i was/am/still half hoping for something tragic.
cancer... fine.
leukemia... FINE.
the pain? i know i can bare with it.
it still hurts but i am all numb to it already.
YAYs! bring it on!!!

... i know i am mumbling. i am being emo after all.
SIGHS!