just perhaps, it's time.

this has been going on for a while now.

i made a promise to myself back then,
not to make a fuss about it.
to be quiet about it.
not to turn the blog emo emo again.

but now, the time has come.
and oddly so has the pains.

for the past few months every since,
loving you has turned into a pointless direction,

the heart has been feeling a certain pain.
a pain that i don't understand.

but i have been baring with it.
coping with the pain.

till now, it has evolved into something more,
critical.

and today i felt another jab in the heart.
my breathing flow has become rather inconsistent as well.
and difficult.

perhaps, maybe perhaps,
if i continue having this pain,
then maybe, i can leave this world away from all those other,
those pains and sufferings.