hopefully it will happen with a smile.

i considered for not writing for awhile.

but then, who knows what will happen today or tomorrow.
so i decided to pen them down now,
just incase i forget.
especially since i forget so much easily now.

so i better just type them.
as i think.
of what i can remember about.

but i think too fast.
way too fast for my hands to type it out.
so there might be mistakes.
so bared with this hand racing mind typing post.

i often time think a lot before i sleep.
one of which is will i wake up tomorrow morning.
and if i didn't would i be happy and content.
would i come back and haunt or be able to move on.
which one of the many reasons,
led me into celebrating my birthday at the shelter home.

i didn't do enough good deeds.
and if i died in my sleep.
i would be thrown to hell.
without even able to fence for myself.

but saying i didn't have enough time,
would be lame.

we all have more then enough time.
i feel like i have too much time some days.
26 years on earth.
i wonder how many more i have.

but somehow people know when they are about to go.
i often have that feeling.
especially since now the heart is constantly at pain.
and the dry cough has not stopped.
i wonder will i cough out blood?

harvey bernard milk said he wouldn't live more then 50 years.
he died at 49.

when i was little i remember crying.
my sister asked me why.
i just watched a series about this lady,
who had her fortune read.
her life line was short, she is going to die young.
i saw mine, and it was short as well.
i will die young.
i cried. fearing i will die young.

now. i don't really mind that much.
this is not suppose to be a sappy post.
and it's not a sappy post.
when i decided to write again,
i promised not to write depressing stuffs.

to live, you must accept death.
... i didn't accept life... so can i embrace death...

mmm... ok it's getting late. my mind isn't working any longer.
had too much of 'little nyonya' on youtube.
from episode 8 i watched to episode 22...

to all the dear people in the world.
(who knows me...)
if you see me, perhaps fainted, ill, in some accident,
some ill-fated condition etc. etc. etc. don't save me, PLEASE.
if you did, i promise you, i SWEAR i will kill you.
don't save me. i am not worth it.
let me go.
i don't want to suffer. i fear that agonizing pain.
don't save me especially if i will come back silly.
... if this happens i WILL sue you big time. SUE you BIG time!!!
just let me go, because it's probably my time.
so let me slip to a world i probably would find bliss.

and i don't want any wake. funeral.
people don't make much time to see me/you when i am/you are alive.
so why bother coming when i am are dead.
i want them deprived/spared of seeing me STIFF.
i want them to remember the laughing me.

i do wonder, will i smile when i am dead.
gosh.
i wonder, if i will wake up in the morning.
and be able to write more another day.

i still have aplenty to say.
to rant to talk to brag about.
perhaps another day.
some other time.
but we will see for now.
will i slip away. hopefully with a smile.

but oddly i am rather excited about it.
such mix emotions.
must be the sleepy talk.
good night world.

REALLY DOWN

am feeling really down. really down.
i should be happy.
and damn proud.

but some how i am feeling extremely down.
so down.
just down.
and it's all around.

i need to run away.
far away.
hide away.

i am just so unhappy.
so moody.
seems so gloomy.

there are just days,
like this.
but they end, pretty quick.

and you see the sky
so high so bright.
so blue and all might.

but that day just isn't today.
not tomorrow.
nor the day after tomorrow.

those happy days.
seems like, so far away.

and you wouldn't know when why how,
to make them come back again.

so i guess for now,
all i can,
all i could,
is just to breath.
i need to breath.
i need... a temporary break, from all this.

copyrights: silly little prince.

where is that knight of mine...

i wonder when will i be rescued.
if that day would even come,
and when it does,
will i manage to have time left to savour it.

i wonder. i really do wonder.

and i wonder do i even want it.
do i actually need it any more.

WOW

has been two crazy event filled days.

friday started with a absolute vodka party at lodge hotel.
we got cranky when the prizes was FINISHED in like 15 minutes.
=.=
haha none-the-less it was cool.







continued with cris yong's high heels sisters party at club six nine,
after sending the little brother for his date. :P
all the fashion sisters had to have our heels on.

guess which one is mine. lols~~~


then the crazy big day came.
i was nervous and excited.
didn't know what to expect.

it rained when the party was about to start.
i panic. i was cursing like mad k.
HEY, i ain't being cheap here!
why RAIN!? i wanna do a fashion show game k!!!
my LONG RUNWAY... ruined!!!

the kids looked at me like a weirdo invading their home.
since i was alone, they accompanied me...
one asked why i was so grouchy? lols.
poor lads, they must be like... omg... sicko in the house.

BUT thank god it turned out to be a kick ass party.
a big THANK YOU to Kit (Laundry Apah), Laundry Amah's hubby. LOLS.
he came saving the day by being the game master.

thank god my guests were superb!!!
thank god the kids were FABULOUS!!!
THANK GOD IT TURNED OUT GREAT!!!

Kit, getting everyone together for the games.




after a short ice break, and Kit's amazing ability with kids, LOLS.
my fashion show was a possible game!!!
YAYS!
i wanted to see how creative people can be with recyclable items.
and omg...
amazing!!!!!!!!!
and because i was getting broke, newspaper... almost free... gosh genius!



even the fashion designer lost to the architect. LOLS.




ADIDAS and CROCS were being so supportive, they donated some clothes and shoes for the kids. ^.^


SO CUTES




so in the end we selected 8 winners,
out of so many other amazing creations.
*honestly they all should WIN!*
i was just so shocked,
with everyone's creativity!!! ^.^
*prize money was donated by my dear friend, Li Wei*

from a room filled with serious looking adults, in a matter of time,
it just transformed into a wild wild recycling fashion room. HAHA.


with Joyce and Laundry Amah.


basically the whole idea was,
all my guests had to buy a present for the kids,
my birthday party but the kids present. ^.^
in a way, it's not only my birthday, but it's the kids birthday!!!

i wasn't taking pictures so a lot of other pictures are just in my head.
for now at least... ^.^
*i know there's a lot of pictures here already...*

it was getting harder to leave. they were being all so entertaining, chit chatting all the way~ singing, bashing one another with news paper... -.- lols.
some were so greedy... they just wanted me to stay for some more pressies -.-


after that long short exhausting day, i needed a drink, badly.
we went over to jaya one for a BIG drink. literally.







i was HAPPY to see a big glass to camwhore with,
by the end, i was SICK of it.


conclusion, it was money well spend.
lets say 4 Paul Smith shirts,
or a bag from Dior or Gucci or Prada,
hell might even be a Louis Vuitton.

but if i spend that on a silly bag,
it probably makes me happy.

or if i threw a party at a club,
we would all get serious drunk...
which always happens anyway.

dinner at a fancy restaurant... anytime la.
why wait for birthdays as an excuse... lols.

so spending it with 50 over friends,
and 57 super CUTE charming kids,
with an amazing memory,
i think know, that's just PRICELESS!

picture credits: Alex THANKS~ :P
*oh erm if there's any pic of yourself... and u erm don't want it up... tell me... i MIGHT remove it. haha*

major cravings

gosh. it's either a dull moment.
or just TOO happening.
so this is a pretty long post.
because i was too lazy to write.
and if i don't anytime soon,
by the time i actually do,
this will be a REALLY REALLY long post.

exactly last week i was a bride's maid.
out of the sudden.
but hack i am glad i am not the heng hai.
cuz there's no way i wanna do those ridiculous obstacles.
-.- LOLS.

anyways it was ee von's wedding.
a friend i knew since the age of 6.
we i had our a tiff.

a minor major one... depends how you view it. haha.
basically our friendship was taken forgranted for.
and i was pissed about it.
so i ignored her for almost two to three years?

but i am glad we made up.
after me avoiding 101 calls etc.
but in the end i gave in,
because it's really hard to find such long lasting friendship.
and she really made the effort to be friends! ^.^

CONGRATS!!!
Wedding Picture credits Anna Rina

and guess what, when the bouquet of flower was thrown. it came flying to me. only i avoided ran away from it. so the flower MAMPUSed... lols!!! the other girls had to go get a new one. which in the end, i decided i LIKE red roses way better than that cheap white looking day flower. HAHAHAHA!!!

then came MONDAY, where some of the other bloggers got itchy.
one was literally gatal.
decided to go DUA residency for lunch to peek on some waiter.
-.-
and the whole entourage went along since our ass was bored rotting at home.
but DANG he wasn't there.

went down to klcc after the lame ass lunch in yuck-li-cious.
*i swear ANOTHER SESSION THERE, that's the new name for it!*
being all bored and probably too much money,
we had HIGH TEA at the all new and overly priced HARRODS.
we dozed off listening to NORAH JONES.
went to the toilet to apply many layers of lotion. -.-
to make our money worth...

since we were on our splurging mood, i suggested dinner at
Tamarind Springs!!!
but was afraid without prior reservation, we would be ignored.
true enough it was FULLY BOOKED... MCB.
so we settled down for one of my many cravings.
KOREAN BBQ~~~


and blink blink came my birthday.
ee von texted to see if i was keen for dinner.
^.^

was hilarious.

eevon: hi if you don't have any plans tonight or tomorrow night, i would like to bring you out for dinner.
me: lols. tonight is fine.
eevon: ok where about?
me: the same place we had the chi mui meeting at jaya one? sometime around 7?
eevon: mmm, you could decide on somewhere apart from that too you know.
me: OMG really... ok. LA FITE then!!! ^.^
*it was a joke... LOLS*
eevon: OMMMMMMMMGGGGGG!!! don't la until LA FITE.
me: LOLS. i actually want to go COLISEUM.
eevon: ok~

before we went, while in the car she asked... you sure you don't want 7ate9 or somewhere else? coliseum???
LOLS~

i missed this old place. and i wanted it. badly.
before it closes down or something. HAHA.



i ordered us the wrong dish. HAHA. but it was still yummie.
... who am i kidding. the standard dropped like mad. =.=
but i still loved it. HAHAHAHA.
eevon saw a few 'siu keongs' in the restaurant. LOLS!

oh and the toilet was upstairs... SO DOGGY. hahaha!!!

and the captain was still there... LOLS...
still being himself... all moody and living the olden days.
LOLS~~~

we went to chillies to have cake and baileys.

and i went home after that for my sharkfins soup.
^.^
i felt a little guitly after that.
just a little.

sorry for a LAME ASS POST.
my brains... well it died when i turned 6...

what day is it today?

somedays,
one of those days,
like today,
i don't know if i am happy,
or sad.
or just lonely?

maybe i am just, really really tired.
and fed up. with so much things happening around.

>.<
i crave for a long. proper, holiday.
far away from home, with a superb beach.
just sitting there, reading.
with the waves, minus the UV lights.
a mai tai.

oh. i can't wait till it's August now.
and that's only 5 more months to go.
-.-

time flies. it sure does.
life is too long, too short.

fever has a HOTS for me.

been a long day.
ever since i have been complaining that i am BORED.
i decided to do something about it.

got shaz, to help me with my workout again.
woke up at 5.45am to get ready for gym at 7.30am. -.-
3 times a week, for two months.
semangat siut kan!

done with that about 9ish. went for a YUMMIE breakfast,
... at some kopitiam at the curve.
then to the office for a quick drop by. ^.^

... and the dramaness begins. haha.

since malaysia is HOTS. panasss~
i decided to chop the bangs. -.-
well technically scott decided to chop the bangs.

all the way to wangsa maju just to let scott chop them yoz

and since i am done with 'Bad Monkey by Matt Ruff',
went to klcc for a book hunt.
'Exit Here by Jason Myers' ^.^
zzzz, but they were out of stock.
so i ended up with two other books!
'This is What I Did by Ann Dee Ellis' - looked interesting.
'Ways of Seeing by John Berger' - had this in college.
zzzz!!!
actually i never realised that i read so much.
i thought i am a lazy ass kid while growing up,
but it seems, i read quite a bit...


some times, you just have to judge a book, by it's cover

dropped by to energie & miss sixty's charity event.

it's about, donating your old pair of WEARABLE jeans for,
a RM300 voucher,
to be redeemed for a new pair of jeans from Energie or Miss Sixty.
your old WEARABLE jeans will then be donated to charity.
this goes on till end of may, so spread the words,
if you want/need a new pair of jeans! ^.^
or even if you have too many pair of old WEARABLE jeans.


dj thomas was spinning for the day

i don't get it, what's the fuzz with cupcakes & events? i prefer MUFFINS!

SUGAR!!!

fendie with bernie chan & ning baizura.

both babes looking fabulous in miss sixty

julia decided we needed a picture together.

with my new short hair... -.-

and with that, i got another door gift. =.=

another keychain! ^.^


ADIDAS's cute robot and mini cushion, aigner's luxurious lock pad
ah~ my lame ass/useless/weird FABULOUS door gifts...
GIVE US REDEEMABLE PRODUCT VOUCHERS!!!
imagine that... every month. ^.^
meow~ LOLS.

the night ended with meeting crystal up,
at pavilion first,
*this is when i felt something odd happening to my body*
for her birthday dinner treat at tweentyone, Changkat Bukit Bintang.
had a RM50 voucher from SOME OTHER EVENT... ^.^
so decided to give it a try.

was actually DAMN YUMMIE. haha.
loved the boogie drink. hahaha!

sadly, this is when mr FEVER had to come hunt me down, AGAIN.
i felt sick. so we cut the dinner short. -.-

i blame the stupid weather and weak body and LEO! haha.
this is the third time i am having FEVER this year. T.T
... never has anything been so attached with me before this...
fever certainly has a HOTS for me.

one quarter

alright there,
i've been sitting here probably way too long.

i remember it was december 2008...
and now... it's suddenly march 2009?

like what the fark did i do for the past 2 months plus?

like O.M.F.G.

and it's like the 3rd of march already!!!?
jeeeze. -.-
talk about time past by in a blink of an eye.

and yet i know some friends who are planning their may/june schedule.

i can only imagine if i am back doing magazines...
i am now looking at, JULY!?

to think about it... i am looking in july.
mom planned for melbourne from aug - oct.
and the bloody premier is set for november.

next thing i know i will be doing another lame new year countdown.

safe to say, 2009 is done. HAHAHA!

alrity, better start making some dough.
LORDY, and next year i am... 27? =.= DANG!
T.T i still wanna be a little kid!!!

MOVE over DIDO

lols.
i got bored.

really bored.
REALLY REALLY BORED!

and decided to play this silly little game,
everyone else is playing on facebook.

even Alex did it. LOLS.

so if you can't beat it join it.
*PLUS since i am so bored at the moment anyways*

Here are the rules:

1 - Go to Wikipedia. Hit random or click http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Special:Random
The first random Wikipedia article you get is the name of your band.

2 - Go to Quotations Page and select "random quotations" or click http://www.quotationspage.com/random.php3
The last four or five words of the very last quote on the page is the title of your first album.

3 - Go to Flickr and click on, "explore the last seven days" or click http://www.flickr.com/explore/interesting/7days
Third picture, no matter what it is, will be your album cover.

4 - Use Photoshop, GIMP, Inkscape, or similar to put it all together.

TADA~

Dido darling, i am sorry, but, move over, the NEGROS REVOLUTION
is taking over.
RAWWWWWWWWWW~~~



original photo credit to : IANTON.
please don't sue me. ^.^

Negros Revolution

It's never just a game when you're winning, George Carlin (1937 - 2008)