lets

i have always liked the idea that you complete something.
one round.
so that it connects.
and i have always love the idea that i get to choose my death.

it's rather tragic to just die randomly,
spontaneously.
unwillingly.

i like how my tombstone would read,
11.03.83 - 10.03.10
looks cool.

life has been a fun ride,
wild but fun.
regardless of what may come,
and happen.
i think everything else is rather cliche,
and predictable.

rarely anything excites me now.
or even interest me.
i think i am more excited to see what's after life is like...

somedays i think perhaps i have this illness,
deadly, (literally)
that's why everything else is not meant to be.

so let's pretend, i only have 2 more months.
65 days more to be exact.

now it feels, there's so much to do,
so little time left. haha.

if i live thru this time line, then let's play again,
the next year,
and if i don't... you are not invited to my funeral.

life is about timeline, movements.
so you feel that you have achieved something in life.