too...

it's too much work...

to know somebody...
always the same thing.
same questions...
same answers...
same reactions...
same lies...
same everything, over and over again.


to attend an event function...
because you talk to new people...
about the same thing over and over again...
and it's about the same catching up...

... geeze...
it's just too much work living.

... but oddly i don't mind just relaxing,
sitting by the beach,
enjoying a coconut drink under the trees...
for days, doing nothing but the same thing...^^

ok i need a holiday soon!
*ok i got back from a really horrible lousy pointless dumb awards*
*no i am not being sour because i didn't win*
*really i am not!*

interception

i feel that someone in my life,
various random unknown humans,
is/has always been intercepting...
all the goodies that should have come my way.
pfft.
tee hee.



and to those, when i call, and you keep asking me "Who is this...?"
which means you do not have my number,
... even when i have been calling you before...
and it's always me who has been calling...

first few times, it's OK. fine.
i don't keep people's number either.
and i change phone once a year.
without saving numbers...
so it's FINE. understandable.

but later tell me you were playing...
... you may think it's funny.
but i don't. because it's way too many times!
so i don't need to know you either.
or have you in my life.

because we... were bored.

so on wednesday, after some meetings...
i picked up mark who hails from Philippines/Norway...
another complicated being. haha.

and well... the beginning was kinda drama.
LOL... original make up artist was suddenly ill.
i didn't want to reschedule this shoot. AGAIN!
already a nine to five girl ain't easy going out for random fun shoot lor!

so buzzed my bff forced her to help out with the hair and make up.
TEE HEE.
so we quickly went to another friend's studio
... to pinjam make ups... =.=
because bff's things were in her other house,
and we were lazy to drive to the other house... zzz.

only then headed to kenneth's place to...
CAMWHORE! wakakaka!!!





well first two is me being busy camwhoring sahaje sahaje. blekz.
bored and test test lights ma.
keke.

well presenting Mark Alejandro, a slight teaser~
since pictures are still with kenneth. kaka.







really at one point... i felt like we were shooting soft porn lor. wakakaka!!!

Headless Heroes

so much has been happening.
but i am so lazy to write them.
plus,
i am having memory issue lately.
sighs.
i don't remember something what i want to write already.
oh well... that's what happens with aging.

i like the artwork. so artsy~ ^^
=.= song kinda emo. haha.


oh geeze... i suddenly remember some of them...
LOL!!!

we were so bored the other day we did some...
naughty porno shots with Mark. tee hee.

well ok it's not really porno...
... then again it looks like soft porn...
will post them later or maybe tomorrow or... this weekend. ^^

ah. me lurves wang lee hom.

suddenly it creeps to you...

i wrote about this a million times.
ok that's a little too exaggerated

do you sometimes...
suddenly...
stop.

... and think.
... where am i?
... what am i doing?
... what is this?
... exactly... how does this... works...
or ends...
... what happens?

what is an apple?
maybe a boy is an apple...
who called it...
who named it an apple?
who decided that b is for boy?

... what is all this... letters?
how did they started to... form?
how did it all begin???
... where do i even begin all this nonsense!?

... do you sometimes just STOP.
and look around
but everything feels surreal?
... like nothing is real...

... i am having these thoughts a little too often now.

and it creeps to me...
exactly where am i?
what am i?
how does all this... ends?
what... exactly is life?

stupid grindr

i laughed when eric got the warning...

-.- i didn't when i got the same warning.

come on... i am wearing shorts!!!

i see other guys having less... fabric on them ok!
pfft.

hatez!!!
double standards!!!
=.=

what is so... suggestive here!?



stupid grindr!
PFFT!!!

LAUGH DIE ME!!!

this scenario is so TRUE.

the amount of times i change and tweak certain elements, colours etc just for the stupid client and agencies to see is... infinity...
=.=
hahaha.
no joke k!

its official...

yea. it's official...
i have a slut word written on me...

=.= attached humans loves to pour sugar over me...

and i am... so cheap that i will respond... >.<

makes me really wonder...
are there any... faithful trustable human out there?

... never play with fire you can't extinguish...

Presenting Co-Ed School

Ahhh... so kiuts.

like finally a new group that isn't...
all girls... or all boys...

but... none that cute or pretty... LOLZ.
or hot... keke.

but still a catchy song la.



WAH WITH SUBS!!!



tintin just killed this song for me after i played it so many times and even found the subs... =.= then he said it... and it does... sound like lady gaga's telephone... BUU!!!

but tee hee~ i still likes it. just slighty dislike it a little. BLEKZ.