U FFK ME!

urghs.
i was so looking forward to tonight...
but then... as fate plays with me...
the date called in sick instead...
i feel like i kena fong fei kei lor... sniffs.

oh damnit. was so looking forward to seeing his pecs...
=.=

then again not going to the club is also a good thing,
it now takes a while to recover from any hang over.
will be a bad idea to skip my workout routine tomorrow.

finally the mind and body can now cope with heavier weights,
and a slight different free weights routine. YAYS!
and i guess the results are showing. DOUBLE YAYS!
so there's no way i wanna skip a session now...
tee hee.



this is not to flaunt *nothing to flaunt... yet!*
but a documentation of how small it is... haha... -.-
yes this means, ideally it will get even bigger.
size C cup... ^^ hahaha.

it's pantang but...

i wish i was dead.
i really do.

well i am a little tipsy.
but still... sober enough to rant nonsense.
...
and well i honestly do wish i am... dead.
dying.

maybe i am... just that i don't even know it yet.
... i am so tired of living.

there are days where by i feel that there isn't enough time.
... but for now. i wish i am just... dead.
...

wow i am actually typing this with my eyes closed.
*i hate humans btw*

stupid grindr

i laughed when eric got the warning...

-.- i didn't when i got the same warning.

come on... i am wearing shorts!!!

i see other guys having less... fabric on them ok!
pfft.

hatez!!!
double standards!!!
=.=

what is so... suggestive here!?



stupid grindr!
PFFT!!!

downhill

sighs.
will be going up maxwell hill later...

don't know what i will be facing this time...
even with a strong mind to face it...
part of me feel that i might breakdown any moment now...

and i don't even know why...
... perhaps i do...
i just don't want to face it...

Drained to the MAX

i feel so depressed about work.
and sadly there's nobody i could talk to...
i need to pour my heart out. :(

i love everything i do,
the conceptualization of everything,
i am not complaining about the hard work...

but rather...
to deal with humans...
with idiots...
with morons...

i just feel so drained.
i don't even think there's anymore drops left to squeeze out of me already.

some days, like today...

i do think that,
the other little brother and i,
we share the same music taste.

and somehow, both the little brothers,
they just happen to love pink a little too much.
hehe.

how kiuts. ^^





i'll be away again. for some time now.
being online the past few days has been great.
but tonight,
i have been once again reminded of how i am feeling.

... and i certainly don't enjoy being all pretentious around friends.
i need to... forget you. for good.

... and if there's a need to write... i will just hide the blog for a while then. ^^
until then, a big HUGS to a brand new fabulous year, and years ahead.

a need to bitch about these boys...

Omg. Here I am at maison... And well sunday is well known for boys night. So how some dumb dumbs don't know and here they are outside bitching about how they dislike and how they didn't know that tonight is a boys night la and was hoping to bang some chics la...

So why exactly aren't they gone yet? They were here since like I arrive, and now that leo has arrive 45 minutes late they are still here... And while typing this they are still here!!! If they dislike the all boys night idea so much... Go home la! Come back for your bottle another night, cuz until now you keep talking and I don't even see you drinking!!!!! Geeze!

*Bitching via BlackBerry*