will i be as shallow?

makes me wonder...
not to say that i have a superb body.
but, the definitions here there are beginning to form.

no doubt there's still a lot of work, needed.
bigger triceps. bigger chest.
ass. deltoids. etc...
... bigger everything. LOLZ.
point is the shape is forming.

i just need more food.
to build them.
*i am so lazy to eat lately*

the question now here is...
those guys who ignores me because i am skinny...

i do wonder will i be bothered to acknowledge them back...
the moment i am at par with them?
*coughs* as if i will be at par with them... *coughs*
fit with the ideal body...

and it also makes me wonder...
what was the objective of doing this in the first place then...

to seduce someone...?
to make someone regret?
to make myself feel better?
..............??????
... does make me wonder...
what sort of person i will turn into when that happens...

and why do i even bothered?

... i guess... sometimes it's just to past time.

-.- gosh i have no life. zzz.

DOUBLES

... gosh. this is bad.

SUDDENLY... the whole night...
i am OBSESSED with double eyelid...
to the stage that i am actually googling about it...
and that's a very very very dangerous sign...

because i might just go get it done tomorrow...
LOL!!!
=.= *SWEATs*

must go ogle at more korean faces...
hopefully i will love back singles... -.-
KAKAKAKAKAKAKA.
how random.

eyes gonna pop out...

mmm... goodness.
been watching way too many movies these few nights.
i think my eyes might actually just pop out soon.

yawns...

i think for now i shall stick to reading to past time for the next couple of months.
just too lazy to think or do anything.

... so lazy to even rant about some thing...
a few things... lol.

let the music heal your soul

what an old old song...

but it's true,
you could probably live without watching a movie,
as entertainment... to past time.
i mean, there's always live drama...
looking at people...
fight, cry, scream, etc almost... anywhere...

but singing... music...
you just got to have it. :)

i think those days where a lot simplier.
like those days from the movie "sound of music"
you just sing your heart out...

:(

this has practically been the emoticon that i have been wanting to show.
but it wouldn't even really matter.
because...

well i guess... showing this :) would make things easier.

but that sort of makes,
everyday is a stage play.
every uttered word is a written script.

Time Flies

time flies,
from the moment you are created.

anticipation awaits.
from cells,
you grow.
into a living breathing being.

and time flies even faster,
even while waiting.

clock ticks.
surrounding keeps changing.
...
...
...

some days,
just by sitting here,
the click ticks away,
from morning,
suddenly it's evening.

i wonder what i am waiting for...
what i am living for...

even so, time flies.

my baby boy

it's now been more than 12 years,
since i last held you.

it some times does feel like only yesterday,
that we were running around,
you digging holes around the garden.
chewing my slippers...
waiting for me at the front gate...

i miss you.

i miss the way you round around crazily,
before you would jump on me.

i miss the sound you make on the floor,
that you will scratch it before you lie down.
apparently it cools it.

i miss playing with you.
chilling on the porch with you.

i miss how your fur will always be tangled,
on the sides of your ears.

you were super mischievous.

today marks your death anniversary.
i really do miss you astro boy.
you were and always will be my best friend. :)

big bro always called you "Handome" and you will be so proud...


... i can't believe you made me cry, again.
even after all these years.
i really do miss and love you so much Astro boy.