chant it remember it

must focus.
must remember.
must chant.
must OBEY.

there are no males worth loving.
none of them are good and deserving.
most of them are bastards.
majority of them are shallow.

only a few are worthy,
only a few are worthy being cared for,
but only as friends.
nothing else. nothing more.

none of them deserve my attention.
none of them are worth the pain.

i can so live without him.
i do not need him.
i am an independent kid!!!
^.^

i cannot and will not and never NEVER ever fall again.
the heart cannot afford to get hurt, again.
... there's no heart to begin with.
so there is no way to love again.

hospital bills are expensive,
better to spend them on shopping.
FOCUS!!!
a birkin bag is probably more worth it.

should only be in a relationship with me, myself and i.
oh darling~ can we please go shopping!
we need some pampering moments!!! ^.^