I remember (the beginning of astro)

i remember when i was a kid,

there was this disney movie. about a boy and his dog. i couldn't really remember if his fur was all white or black or a combination. but i remembered him being mischievously naughty but extremely active and helpful. and his name was Astro.

this was how, my dog got his name. Astro. he was a splitz breed. his fur is a combination of black and white. totally cutes!

i remember astro being born in the year end when i was eight. it was the beginning of the holiday season. i was in standard 2 going to standard 3. he was the first born, yim yim and lucky's. my neighbour's dogs. at first, joanne wanted to keep him for herself. so his original name was mickey.

and i was initially suppose to be given the 5th puppy. but i wanted mickey more. somehow in the end, he's mine. ^^ even thou i also loved the 5th puppy as well. and he was all white. i think her cousin wanted him more. haha.

i remember the day i got astro, the sky was very dark, it was in the evening, but it was going to rain soon. and we just got back from langkawi. i even remember i was sick during that trip, with high fever.

the moment i got back, grandma asked me to go the 'back shop' to buy 2 packs of sugar in exchange for astro, as a token of appreciation since he was priceless.

being an eight year old, i wasn't very happy with this arrangement, that i had to cycle all the way behind and use my own pocket money, plus it was about rain. but i was very excited none-the-less... and was extremely happy because from that day onwards, i will have a dog.

if it's you by alex chu

my emotion feels so topsy turvy lately.

i... honestly don't know why you would send me an sms...
stating that we need to talk...

i know what i wrote on my facebook.
what i don't know is, it's because of that, we suddenly need to talk.

... it some how sounds serious.

do you actually care?

why do i always feel like i am the victim.
then it turns out that you are the victim...?

it's not entirely fair... i tell you how i feel...
you, only hide them from me.
keep me guessing.

i don't really want to meet you. because i might just cry, if i did.

all i want, is to be treated right. as a friend.

is that, too much to even ask for?

because i don't want to make you sad,
to trouble you,
to disturb you,
i decided to stay away,
be distant...
to give you back your space,
to feel free...
then yet you call me back...

i am just lost now.
i don't know how to face you...
all i feel like doing now is just, crying.



sighs.

the lovely bones

i was in the blue horizon.
between heaven and earth,
the days weren't changing
and every night i dreamt the same dream.
the smelt of damp earth,
the scream that no one heard,
the sound of my heart beating,
like a hammer against a clock.
and i could hear them calling,
the voices of the dead.
i wanted to follow them, to find a way out,
but i would always come back to the same door.
and i was afraid.
i knew, if i went in there,
i would never come out.

a short break...

i think i need a break from the internet...
it's killing my eyes.

for the past 2 days,
i have been a potato couch.
starting at my desktop.
-.-

i keep running to the desktop, every second...
even especially while packing...
and there's just so much junk to pack...
and every time i am done with one corner...
the other corner feels like a drag to start...
i love a tidy room... but... this is just exhausting...
HATEZ!

thank god at least the office is almost done. haha.

if tomorrow is not picking austin up day,
i would probably be spending the entire day watching "we got married"
gosh. series... so addictive.

so yea. i should really STOP procrastinating.
get all the work done...
go back to the gym...
spend the days wisely
instead of... sleeping my life away.
haha.
yawns.

Daniel

woots.
my name is again another title for a song...
... so emo. hahahahaha.



Daniel when I first saw you
I knew that you had a flame in your heart
And under under our blue skies
Marble movie skies
I found a home in your eyes
We'll never be apart

And when the fires came
The smell of cinders and rain
Perfumed almost everything
We laughed and laughed and laughed
And in the golden blue
Cryin' took me to the darkest place
And you have set fire to my heart

When I run in the dark, Daniel
To a place that's worst ?
Under a sheet of rain in my heart
Daniel
I dream of home

But in a goodbye bed
With my arms around your neck
Into our love the tears crept
Just catch in the eye of the storm
And as my heart ran round
My dreams pulled me from the ground
Forever to search for the flame
For home again
For home again

When I run in the dark, Daniel
To a place that's worst?
Under a sheet of rain in my heart
Daniel
I dream of home

When I run in the dark, Daniel
To a place that's worst
Under a sheet of rain in my heart
Daniel
I dream of home

Times of Your Life

by Joanna Wang


Good morning, yesterday
You wake up and time has slipped away
And suddenly it's hard to find
The memories you left behind
Remember, do you remember

The laughter and the tears
The shadows of misty yesteryears
All the good times and the bad you've seen
And all the others in between
Remember, do you remember
The times of your life
(Do you remember)

Reach back for the joy and the sorrow
Put them away in your mind
For memories are time that you borrow
To spend when you get to tomorrow

Here comes the setting sun
(Comes the setting sun )
The seasons are passing one by one
So gather moments while you may
Collect the dreams you dream today
Remember, will you remember
The times of your life

So gather moments while you may
Collect the dreams you dream today
Remember, will you remember
The times of your life
Of your life
(Do you remember, baby )
(Do you remember the times of your life)
Of your life
(Do you remember, baby )
(Do you remember the times of your life)

don't understand why some people are so drama.
it's only the beginning of a new year.
just reflect on your own lives and not others can ba?
haha.

sushi ah~~~

did you know that...
click picture to enlarge

well now you do... ^.^
erm clearly i stole this pic off somewhere, don't remember where... i click click click... and tada~
so... don't sue me. heh.

ahh i miss this song today...
feels like it's a damn sign.
what am i waiting for!?
i should so get my lazy ass of this chair!!!

morris in red

so today was the final joy testdrive ride i had with austin.
just sent him home, so he could be fixed up.
and change of names etc. and he will be all mine!
haha.

he's really an attention seeker... -.-
just last night, and i have to rant about this!
i was made to park him in valet... just because he is too adiorable!
and i was charged the valet price!!!
BUT... they made me park there!!! when i wanted the normal lot...
super nonsense! so double standard!!!
there were days i didn't mind paying to park paris there...
and they said NO... MCB!

so anyways, went to the basement to quickly snap Miko's mini...
for other more inspired and potential mini owners out there...
well maybe i could convert more people to MINIs~~~?
so cute k!!! ^.^

his is a mark 1, morris cooper,
while mine is a mark 2, austin cooper...
his is in red... and it's worth a lot more than mine,
MORE MINI DETAILS
*click it click it, so many cute mini pictures to see~~~!!!*

evann, start saving, this could one day be yours... lolz.



and his is a manual...
-.- the speed... insane...
*but austin can speed up to 145kmp!!!*
he brought me for a ride in the basement...
and VVVVVBBBRRRRRRRRROOOOM 120kmp in that small space...
SIOW BOH!
was literally sitting in fear... >.<# super scary!!!









spotted two other really nice red cars... so HOTZ~~~!!! sizzling.







like since when was i ever this enthusiastic about cars!?
... geeze. like NEVER loh!
i swore never to be bothered about them before this...
WHY!!!???
you pay so much for a car...
you pay so much for the road tax and insurance...
you have to freaking maintain it!
you do it up for? aesthetic beauty... -.-
BUT it's usually in the basement,
not like it's walking around next to you...
and simply because it's ridiculous!!!
and it is!!!

but gosh... miko did warned me that with minis...
i will be hooked!!!
i thought otherwise... could be...
but perhaps now i AM hooked... -.-

i am already thinking of the things i want to do to Austin...
i so want that cute leather strap!!! haha.
... spray him like a paul smith...

poor Paris, so... neglected. i should fix him up as well... >.<
*just drove him home, and i ain't used to him already... diez*

but you know, doing up old antique cars are just way more fun than the new boring modern cars,
firstly if you do up a honda, what can you actually do?
change the seats? change the rim? the wheels? add dumb... wings...???

... when you want to sell it off, the new owner would probably go...
WHY ON EARTH DID YOU ADD THIS PIECE OF CRAP TO IT!?
WHAT!!!??? WHY YOU ARE CHARGING ME ADDITIONAL RM1K BECAUSE YOU CHANGED THE SEATS!?

but instead, if you change a mini's seats... people go OOOOHH...
you add some embellishments to it... people go AHHH SO CUTE!!!
and if the old car with new engine racks up a super loud noise,
people just go WOWWW!!!
while all this adds more value to the car... ^.^
i feel so smart buying an old car. haha.

best part is when people leave a note that says something like this about your car,

someone left this note on miko's car


so if anyone wants to buy a mini... or keen... let me know k...
apparently miko has plenty more... muahahahahahahahaha!!!

*58 more days*

riding Austin

so here's my new baby.
so leng zhai ok!
damn macho gilerz!!!

he gets all the bloody attention when we are out together!
damn him!
i so don't need the extra sportlight!
-.-

like go mamak... people stare cock... GOSH. *so shy ah!*
can you imagine especially when you don't know how to... move him...
lolz. *so didn't happen... ok fine he fainted once... LOLz!!!*



















... damn loud k when he vvvvvBBRRRROOOOOOOMmmmMM~~~
there was this show off guy who parked next to us, then he 'main' his enjin... -.-
k lo... then i turn austin on... lolz. austin BROOOOOOM... the guy next to us... crawl away.
WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!
now i know why guys do that, to shut those showoffs... BLEKZ. hahaha!!!






yea sure, having an old car might have lots of pros and cons...
but what doesn't? haha. everything in life needs maintenances!
yet i rather get this, than a new honda... and pay like RM2k a year for my road tax.

get this vintage hottie and pay RM20 a year for my road tax...
use the balance to pay whatever i need to modify-fix him hotter instead!
beat that! hahahaha!!!



... insurance... pppfft...
*i don't know about this yet... HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!*
PLEASE GOD... let there never be another nonsense accident EVER AGAIN!

but ... mom said he is expensive... URGHS!
hatez. haha. but I DON'T CARE!
yes yes... to date this is my most impulse purchase EVER!
^.^
... Paris is probably annoyed right now... better... ride him soon.

*61 more days*

being with Austin

OMG!!!

lolz. i didn't know it would be this much fun being with Austin. hahahaha.

it was only few hours together and i am just... head over heels.
he was soooo good to fetch Julie for her Quickie show,
then fetch Ee Von and I around town, then to mamaks... hahahaha.

gosh I do hope Paris feels ok with me abandoning him in the mall...
for Austin... -.-#

will so have to camwhore later when i see Austin... ^.^
was just too dark to do much kinky stuffs this evening. hehe.
WOOTS~~~

day seven so far...

hatez.

nothing has been happening lately.
sien to the max.
but procrastinating in cleaning the house... >.<
and the junks in the office... >.<#

mmm. but lately, i have been loosing strength.
and then i also have been loosing interest...
pretty fast.
well except on meeting Austin.

tho, been pretty busy deleting all those dumb dumbs on msn that don't even talk.
FEELS so much better now that it's way more, simpler.
like why are they on the list when we don't talk. hahaha. ^.^

before i even loose interest in these pictures,
better just post them here now... haha.

so someday in between christmas and new years we went clubbing.
at the opera @ sunway piramid. was pretty... fun. haha.

overly hacked but still alive shoes...


camwhoring with chelsia


pose maut...


competing with pose maut...


camwhoring with elvanna


and then... i had to babysit the dumb miri boy...
-.- taihendesune... hahaha.

... cheap thrill of being a factory worker for... 3 minutes... lolz


i BAM n BAM n BAMMED!!!


lolz. too kiuts. i love the apron. hahaha.


miri boy drawing a "A" under heat and pressure...


kl boy... slaving... for art. haha.


and YAYS am finally going to see Austin later today.
WOOTS~
i hope he turns out FINE~~~
*finger crossed*

*updated 1.32AM... i feel like i have turned into a kid.... geeze the usage of england today is like... -.-# hahaha*

*62 more days*

GEEZE!!! woman it's a 9 not a 6!

... just had the (one of) most ridiculous call ever.

some random number calls me blackberry line...
i answered it...

random dumb girl (RDG): hello mr yap?

me: erm, what number did you dial?

RDG: i nak cakap dengan mr yap...

me: *like i care* what number did you dial!?

RDG: ni kan syarikat blah blah blah!? saya nak...

me: i said, my dear what number did you dial???

RDG: 016...2...

me: HELLO~ this is a CELCOM number...

RDG: oh ye ke... sorry sorry...

me: hangs up...

how dumb can people be...
and why oh WHY do they keep calling my number!!!?
and why when i ask them a question,
they don't know how to answer it!
as if, if someone else would hold someone else's phone to have a conversation with you!!!
it's a freaking 9!!! not 6!!!
idiotssssssssssssssssss!!!

oh well she made my day so much more interesting.
thanks. dumb dumb. ^.^
haha.

tiada ertinya

my all time, favorite song.

*64 more days*

lets

i have always liked the idea that you complete something.
one round.
so that it connects.
and i have always love the idea that i get to choose my death.

it's rather tragic to just die randomly,
spontaneously.
unwillingly.

i like how my tombstone would read,
11.03.83 - 10.03.10
looks cool.

life has been a fun ride,
wild but fun.
regardless of what may come,
and happen.
i think everything else is rather cliche,
and predictable.

rarely anything excites me now.
or even interest me.
i think i am more excited to see what's after life is like...

somedays i think perhaps i have this illness,
deadly, (literally)
that's why everything else is not meant to be.

so let's pretend, i only have 2 more months.
65 days more to be exact.

now it feels, there's so much to do,
so little time left. haha.

if i live thru this time line, then let's play again,
the next year,
and if i don't... you are not invited to my funeral.

life is about timeline, movements.
so you feel that you have achieved something in life.

third day of the new year so far...

several things has kicked off the beginning of the new year.

on the first day itself i was awoken by a knock.
sis said mom was very ill.
and i needed to go get a doctor back.
and well most of the doctors in this area, they don't do house call.
tried calling few doctor friends and thank god Paul answered it.
wasn't a big major emergency after all.
especially since mom mustered enough energy to scold me...

then that evening,
i saw a dream car.
it's all miko's fault.
and now i want it badly.

while today, i suddenly felt emo.
so blue so gloomy.
i wonder why is the human mind so odd.