missing something... something like... you.

geeez
*meet my new tag line*
GEEEZ!!!

kakakaka.
even tho this entry will/might sound a little emo.
i really am OK.

been feeling a lot better.
with the ups and downs.
i went shopping.

mmm... just this 4 days... RM6k...
i bought so much crap i can open a shop already.
my room... already packed to the ceiling...
... well lets just say i need another room.
for my clothes.

... and YET i have nothing to wear when i go out.
can you BELIEVE that???
*like Jen said, there's always a LIE in BELIEVE*

so how can i still be an emo wreck...
because i miss him.
-.-
like tak habis habis about him.
it sucks big time. but hey... i am dealing with it.
slowly.
tho every time i try.
... -.- i don't even want to think about it.
... ok fine i am worried sick that you are in BKK!!!
i know it's not my place. but i just am.

it sucks. sucks so much that, i will never be able,
... to fall in love again like this.
seeing you makes me smile.
i am content with that. just being close to you.
shrugs. i have never felt like this about a person...
in my entire life before meeting you.
and i know, that i will never be able to again.
and even tho i almost could, and that i did...
loving a bird that flies in and out of your life...
... what could you make out of that...

i want a new phone *blackberry or iphone... or both*
i want a new camera *leica or ricoh or canon or sony*
i want a new ipod
i want...
i want...
i want a live in chef to cook for me whenever i am hungry.
i NEED a super rich young cute gorgeous boyfriend! ^.^
... who loves me a lot more than i do. i am so honest.

geeez, i know the beginning and the ending doesn't make sense.
haha. my mind. my head has been a little coo coo ca choo