so ironic.
that, everything seems to have a trend.
even a topic. a blogpost.
somehow that tends to lead to a similarity.
was about to write about miscommunications.
and evann wrote something similar to it. only, he managed to save it. while i...
i probably never had that friendship to begin with.
let alone that relationship that i once craved for.
it's now probably 2 months since i last spoke to him.
last i saw him was when alex, jason, leo, daniel and i,
we dine at my elephant.
i hope he didn't see me.
i hope when jason yelled for my name, inside the restaurant,
he didn't notice it.
i hope, he didn't recognized my friends.
i didn't plan for our friendship to go like this,
especially one that i treasure so much.
but sometimes a miscommunication unresolved,
just leads it to this path.
i was always open. ready to speak it all out.
he was never, to me at least.
just reserved. fearing that i might have other thoughts.
but how could i not?
when, i know nothing else, but can only guess.
and now all it feels is, i was nothing,
merely another online persona.
not even worth, the friendship.
i used to ask,
was it something i said?
was it something i did, that made you mad?
for now, i am just too tired to understand.
to figure out people's mind.
too tired to get them to open up.
sometimes it's not worth the hassle.
the mind game.
it's just tedious.
even fruitless sometimes.
i have been feeling of late, very very uninspired.
to the verge of nothingness.
