some days, like today...

i do think that,
the other little brother and i,
we share the same music taste.

and somehow, both the little brothers,
they just happen to love pink a little too much.
hehe.

how kiuts. ^^





i'll be away again. for some time now.
being online the past few days has been great.
but tonight,
i have been once again reminded of how i am feeling.

... and i certainly don't enjoy being all pretentious around friends.
i need to... forget you. for good.

... and if there's a need to write... i will just hide the blog for a while then. ^^
until then, a big HUGS to a brand new fabulous year, and years ahead.

technology ruins romance

of course it does.
i totally agree...

i used to get letters when i was 13...
and i think those were the sweetest thing ever.
haha.

-.- i am beginning to forgotten how my handwriting looks like.
eeps.



kinda reminds me of "he's just not that into you" script...

I had this guy leave me a voicemail at work, so I called him at home, and then he emailed me to my BlackBerry, and so I texted to his cell, and now you just have to go around checking all these different portals just to get rejected by seven different technologies. It's exhausting.

the last and first

every night before i sleep,
and every day when i am awake.
you are the last,
and the first person, i think about.

and every night,
and every day,
i keep reminding myself,
that you no longer exist in my life.
that you mean nothing no more to me.

you have been, always, selfish.
it's always been about you.
and now it's high time, about me.

a pleasant email shock... surprise...

it amazes me.
how people get my contacts sometimes...

today i got a shocked of my life.
when my BB beeped.
the work email.
and when i opened it...
those letters formed a word... PETA.

was thinking who's sending me a map?
where am i suppose to go huh...?

then it struck me... it's PETA!!!
(People for the Ethical Treatment of Animals)

like what mother of animals did i killed to be summoned...
seriously i have not touched furs in 3 years now!
the last shot i did with furs was in hong kong...
leathers don't count... :P
so i am clean!!! >.<

then i thought it was a hoax mail with the word photo shoot. >.<
one of those mass emails sent out to people... pfft.
that's what happens when you leave your emails at events...
it goes around the world. given away. sold etc... right right right!?

but after further reading... omg. my name is in it.
WOOOOOOO... so this person somehow is really writing to me. LOLZ.
it's not a mass email la. ^^

after reading it properly, and with further emailings,

i now announce...
this coming 2010, Malaysia's PETA ad campaign is proudly styled by yours truly.
for free. ^^
*that sums up my charity work for the year! YAY!!!*
hahaha. *cough*cheapskate*coughs*

so say no to fur people. malaysian's don't need it. ^^
it's damn hot here.

and since it's the same topic. i also got a pleasant surprise last week from a fabulous dude all the way down south. ^^
thanks roman for the chats and friendship. it has been keeping me very sane. hehe.

a need to bitch about these boys...

Omg. Here I am at maison... And well sunday is well known for boys night. So how some dumb dumbs don't know and here they are outside bitching about how they dislike and how they didn't know that tonight is a boys night la and was hoping to bang some chics la...

So why exactly aren't they gone yet? They were here since like I arrive, and now that leo has arrive 45 minutes late they are still here... And while typing this they are still here!!! If they dislike the all boys night idea so much... Go home la! Come back for your bottle another night, cuz until now you keep talking and I don't even see you drinking!!!!! Geeze!

*Bitching via BlackBerry*

Happy Chinese New Year!

ok. i am a bloody banana.
couldn't type the words out in chinese.
photoshop didn't help...
they didn't allow me to paste the words... -.-
i tried doing the pin yin... and omg so many characters!

SO ANYWAYS~~~
here's wishing you a...



... yes i cheated. i took out an old postcard...
photoshop here... photoshop there... and TADA!
hahahaha.

>.<#
i might draw something later. too... uninspired. haha.
the heat is just roasting me.
oh why can't chinese new year be like christmas... cool and chilly.
hehe.

those going to gamble. win more money.
so you can "cheng" me.

those going to collect any pau...
wish them gong xi fatt chai on my behalf...
and collect the ang pau for me. ^^

yes. this season is also all about the money!
... and please drink more water people. ^^

breakfast 3 in the morning

it's the wickening hour. and i am still awake.
because i am just too hungry to sleep.

i think humans are one of god's weirdest creation.
here i am being all hungry. at an odd hour. -.-
and i crave for meat. the worst possible hour!!!
right after i just had a shower, with brushed clean teeth!!!

what's there left to eat at this wee hour?
bread that i bought for my grandma!
those old coffee shop style bread...

and guess what? it's so nostalgic eating it.
i have to say, i LOVE it!!! i MISSED it!!!
that smell... yums.
even thou it's been probably 3 - 4 days ago?
*see i am helping grams finish it so i can get fresh ones!*
but the smell is still so nice.
*please pray i did not eat any growing penicillin colony*

so this makes me wonder,
why was something so good, so nice, so simple.
replaced with mass production bread?
and... why didn't i eat it earlier!!!??? hahaha.

was it to the convenience of the people?
or was it just business?
that all these new bread brands emerged...???
they are so blant. filled with preservatives.

i am sure people still crave for the delicious oven bread, and its smell.
so fragrant. so fresh.
and i high doubt home made or gardenia nor high five can match it.
isn't this a simple bakery method?
oh why oh why...
thank god they sell this old coffee shop style bread nearby my house. ^^
*for the fun of it, roti kedai kopi lama*

simply refreshing with kaya and tea. YUMZ. mmm missing eggs now...

silent nights

i really love the night.
it's so quiet, so peaceful.

oddly at times like this,
i don't feel so lonely but content...
in fact even blissful with life.

i probably hate people a lot.
else why would i like an empty street...

i used to love crowded places.
i used to go concerts, being there with the crowds.
now i can't even bare being in a pack dance floor.

i also find it tiring to meet new people.
it's always the same old thing.
it's getting to a point of a boring routine.
same old boring questions...
then... *insert birds flocking away image*
because at most times, it doesn't even go anywhere.

i so need to get away.
but i don't even know where to,
my heart is saying hk.
my mind is saying bkk.
my bank is saying stay on the bed...
my body is saying just live life a little...
my schedule is saying i soon might be busy busy busy...

SIGHS!
how i drool for days to be like nights.
... and why am i always hungry at nights!!!

it's murderous

sighs.
i think for the past 1 month...
i have been ranting about it.
but yet i have done nothing much about it...

-.-#

i seriously blame facebook to the max!!!
it's killing my life slowly.
i sit here facing the screen almost 18 hours...
staring blankly...

honestly there's nothing much to do online.
nothing really fascinates me.
not there's any exciting things happening around me either...

... i guess, it's seriously time...
to shut it down again for a while now.
and just go traveling.

i miss the desserts in hk...

kampung city

it's coming to that time of the year,
where invades will slowly start to 'balik kampung',
and the city will be hopefully restored to the empty state.
that is the best time ever to drive around.

hassle free. no jam. just lovely.
no unwanted crowds. haha. ^^

but having that said,
while i was in ipoh,
it did make me extremely envious of those who had a kampung to go back too...

for many simply reasons...
they get to be away from the sickening city life.
only, the ironic part is they are away usually when it's the best moment.
NO JAM! haha.

they get to taste, savour simpler food.
more authentic flavours.
they have lovely scenery.
old buildings to camwhore with... -.-

but mostly, they get to see two different worlds.

thou the real fact is,
that they grew up in a simple manner...
especially those from a kampung...
with very basic amenities...

i don't mean to be insulting...
it's just that if you grew up with cemented toilets...
probably no heater... squatting toilet style...
walking barefooted around the house compound...
a swing made out of tyre...
i just feel those people are super down to earth,
compared to the city kids...

they don't mind lacking the conveniences of certain luxury.
especially when traveling.

unlike me...
i tend to get annoyed at all those little things.
more particular with a lot of things...
how the bedsheets should be...
ok fine i can still bare with ugly bedsheets,
BUT the toilet has to be CLEAN with a heater... that is a priority!

i will die if i had to live in a kampung house...
visiting is fine... but living in there,
even for a night... just kill me.

while kampung kids always feel envious of the city kids...
but, for what? the city has not much traditional values...
not much heritage...
it's basically a place made of pretty minerals, cements, dust, pollution...
a center to produce, spend, exploit oneself for money...
that's pretty much about it...

sky high tall buildings... i think i can live without it...
the higher you are, the easier it feels to collapse.

i guess the grass is always greener the other side.

dots to lines to pictures.

gosh. it's been ages. since i last drew!
properly... -.-
not to say i was ever good at it...
but i do miss it.

spending so much time in the workshop last week,
just to get austin checked up etc...
i had some scribbling time.
and i realized how deteriorated my skills are now... >.<
perspective is way off... hahaha.



and while busy busy packing.
i almost threw away all the old drawings...
gosh.







i like how i colour... paint...
randomly... couldn't careless attitude... haha.
i personally think... lady gaga's designers/stylist are inspired by me.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

i probably will never be as good as my lecturer...
there's a reason why she is my lecturer to begin with...
that... bitch. i hate her. HAHAHAHA.



i think this is what i need.
to spend some time, with the pencils and papers.
randomly drawing.
in lots of ways, it calms me down.

who cares if it's not as good as picaso or van gogh...
it's all about... having fun doing it!!!

A Saturday in Sekinchan

we had nothing better to do.
but because we can...
we decided to camwhore...
the vogue way. ^^

pictures says a thousand words.
so let them do the talking,
and you do the interpretation. ^^

for more details, do visit Heart Patrick

*updated* Sekinchan People *updated*












Photographer: Heart Patrick, Gene Kok, Tripod.
Fashion Stylist: Daniel Henry.
Art Direction: Everyone.