Saturday, January 3, 2009

tai tai with the mai tais

my mind has been running wild.
here there everywhere.

there are moments i crave to visit japan again,
then the next second hk again, bali even.

mom said we'll go melbourne in aug for two months.
that feels so far away.
don't know if i will survive the ride till then.

i know i should focus back on work.
then maybe i will stop thinking nonsense.

but that's the other shit hole.
i don't know if i enjoy doing this anymore.

i feel so PLASTIC doing it now.
and a little too bitchy towards some people.
i don't like it.
i don't like myself being it.

and i don't know what else i would probably enjoy doing.
can i just be a tai tai who orders mai tais in the day time?

how do you turn a new leaf when there's no wind blowing?

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